Past

I remember when I first asked my mom what adoption was, she told me “when a mom and a dad love their baby and aren't able to help it grow up right, they would put set the baby up for adoption.” I asked that question because when I lived in Cheektuwaga my best friend Kamiri had told me that he was adopted and I had no clue what that meant. So than I asked “well who takes care of the baby then?” She replied “the mom and dad who decide they want a baby and don't want to wait a long time.” To my astonishment I had told her about my friend and how he was telling me he was adopted because his his skin is dark and his mom and dads skin is white. And she told me that yes he most likely was and that there was nothing wrong with that. Then from that day on, I wanted to adopt a baby brother and I wasn’t going to stop until I got one. I would constantly say to her “don't you want to help a little baby and let it stay with us?” I even offered to take care of it. Being about 7 and naive I thought it was going to be as easy as playing with him and feeding him. She would always tell me it was harder then that and I would never believe her. I just wanted a brother in the worst way. Seeing I grew up on a street of all senior citizens who were retired and had on children. And the only I got to play with kids my age were when we drove all the way out to Alden to see my moms best friend Sue and her daughters son. Obviously that wasn't allot seeing its about a 20 minute ride. She knew I was bored and had no one to play with most of the time and felt bad. Until one day I overheard my mom and Sue talking about my mom and I moving out to Alden and me switching schools. I was never so excited in my life ! Then after that talk it all went uphill from there. We moved and I had friends all over to play with and my mom and I were both just much happier. And here I am today.

Present

Right about now I'm pretty satisfied with life, my grades are up, my personal life’s good and so is my relationship with my girlfriend. As of now I really couldn't ask for more, just hopefully it stays like this for a while. I'm doing really good in school and I really like all my teachers. “Trust me, that really helps allot.” I'm really looking forward to joining the Spring House League, in the spring for Twin Holiday Rinks. I really love ice hockey and would do anything to play. This past season I had to quit the Regals League for personal reasons. But I just cant wait to join again. My friends definitely changed over the summer, some for better, some for worse.Thankfully my true best friends are still the same on the inside. Compared to my old friends who changed. I’m just thankful I have friends that are true and down to earth.

Future

I hope to be headed in the direction of the medical field after high school. I chose the medical field because a lot of the other fields will eventually die down and become less popular. At least in the medical field you know people are always going to get hurt of need to go to the hospital. Therefore the medical field will always be a good direction to head in. I plan on being an EMT and eventually possibly move up to a pediatrician. One because I have always been interested in child care and most of all, I just hate seeing children hurt and would absolutely love to help them. I'm going to have to go through many training courses to get to the EMT level. Than after I get there I would eventually like to get 4 years in college to get bachelor's degree in (pre-med). But that’s all after I graduate High School. Until then I plan to keep my grades up and do my best with my commitment being a junior fire fighter for Aldens Fire Department. But basically all I want out of life is a good paying job that I actually like. I don't want to go through life not being happy with my career because that will most definitely reflect a lot of other things I'm hoping to accomplish.

#2

What ? Where am I ? What in the world is going on ? Why am I floating ! Ahh ! Why is my house in the off the ground ? With all my things wondering through the air ! Bella ? Where are you ? Oh no, if everything is floating, that means she is too ! I have to find her. She's only 18 months old ! She cant help for herself ! What if she hits something or gets hurt somehow. Judy will kill me. And I wont be able to go the dance because she wont pay me for watching her child ! Judy is going to skin me dead and fire me faster than I can say ohh poop ! How do I find her ? Wait, is that her crib ? Bella ! Come wait there ill come get you ! Swish I jump to grab her. BAM ! What ? WOAHH ! Was that a dream ? Wow thank god. Bellas still sleeping and so was I. But its all good. Untill I see Judy standing over me. Oh. Well hello ! Get out she says. And that was the last time I ever watched a child.

#1

October 24, 1983

Story of my life: have you ever worked so hard to get something and than all of a sudden it just gets ripped away ? In some cases that would be a good situation, especially when it comes to my ex wife. You work so hard to get married and live happily. Spend hundreds of dollars on a woman you think you love until one day you realize its all going to be gone soon. I recently found out one day that my wife's weekly "night out with the girls" was really her road trip to see her boyfriend that lived about 2 hours away. I found this on the lovely facebook. That my wife didn't even know I was a member of ! I see a status of (off to see the bf ! finally away from "him") Now you put 2 and 2 together. What would you think ! Yes I was skeptical at first, but after getting in contact with some of her close friends, my theory was confirmed. So the next week or two were pretty interesting. I said nothing besides hello and goodbye. She knew something was wrong. And I think she knew I had found out. And I was going to take care of this the most simplest way of all. If I cant have her, no one can. So i just made one simple adjustment and all my problems were solved. I just made one little adjustment to the furnace. Just a minor little adjustment of a pipe, therefore when it turns on the pilot will not lite and the house will slowly but surely fill up with gas. And you and i both know what would happen if someone accidentally left a candle lit. Poof... There goes the house. And hopefully with her inside of it. Like I said before, if I cant have her, no one else can. So here I was, happy and on a one way trip to Louisiana. Never looking back and on my way to a new life. Just me and Bojangles, (my dog). In all my time waiting to leave I had already successfully bought a house right on the corner of Basin Street. A nice four bedroom, three and a half bath in this nice little town of Kinder. I successfully saved about 110,000 thousand in my bank account that was suppose to to towards paying off the old house. but what do I care, its not in my name ! She is stuck for the next twenty five years paying off a burnt down house. Well eventually we get to our new humble abode and life starts getting back to normal. Wake up, work, home, eat and than bed. Life, just like it was, just without her. and I wouldn't change this for the world. Until one evening, I hear Bojangles braking uncontrollably looking out the bathroom window ! So I run to see whats wrong ! I take a quick look and i see a huge black blob coming towards our direction. Is that a tornado ? I was in disbelief. For sure it was, the winds were picking up and all you heard was crashing and ripping of trees fight out of the ground. Than as the noise got louder as did Bojangles. I knew it, this was the end. I get everything I ever wanted, peace and aloneness. Than it all comes to an end. So in my last minutes before my house and I get fully inhaled by this monster I give my wife one last call to say goodbye. She frantically answers and says “when I said on facebook going to see the BF  I meant BEST FRIEND !” Not boyfriend ! Now thinking, this explains everything. This was all my fault. There was no boyfriend. I blew up her house for nothing ! And mostly I'm about to die and its all my fault and I cant do anything about it. All of a sudden my house starts shredding to pieces and I went flying into a black tunnel. Than smashed into a pile of concrete debris. Now here I write this through spirit, I write this to tell my tale of how one foolish miss take could destroy your whole life. So think things over ! Don't make any rational decisions on the spot. Think everything over. Because that could be the last decision you ever make.